always something...

i feel like there is always something to bring me down once i get a taste of being happy.

like seriously

EVERY


FUCKING


TIME

Im seriously the most motivated ive ever been in my entire life.

Im going to prove everyone wrong and i have a feeling im going to really impress myself.

There are people that fight and work every fucking day to have an ounce of the opportunity that i was born with.

I am Healthy. I am American. I am a white female. This may not be perfect but it sure as hell beats a lot of other lives. I have a family that loves and cares for me. I have my knowledge and talent.

I dont think people understand me at all. I think thats why i like art because i can convey something exactly the way i want to. This fucking life on this floating rock is the only life i have and im so done letting other people influence me and how i feel about myself.

I have plenty of things to work on. I can be extremely rational, or extremely irrational.... well to other people.

Im sick of walking on egg shells with people in my life. Im tired of being ridiculed when i do nothing but my best. I dont know how to be a better person. I think I need to bring God back into my life again.

I need to focus on myself and tonight proved exactly that.

I have high hopes for this summer and my life AWAY FROM CECIL COUNTY.

Im doing things that make me happy. FUCK ANYONE ELSE.


Only I will have to deal with my problems and my life and the situations i put myself in. I really hope it will all be worth it..... I hope someday people will take me seriously and actually want to know my opinion. I want to be someone elses boss. I want to be a thin successful business woman. And that it the end of it.